After the stress of the last few weeks, I've decided to give myself a break of two weeks from work. I'm not able to give it my best at the moment and I really do need some down time to recover.
There is a small amount of deadline knitting that needs to be done, and I'll be able to give my complete attention to that. There are also a few timely emails that need to be sorted, but otherwise, with the exception of urgent queries or problems, I will be out of contact for the next 2 weeks. Pattern and book delivery will be unaffected, as the digital sales are automatic.
To add to everything, I've been withdrawing from my medication, and the side effects are a little strange to say the least. They should be over in a couple of weeks, so this has helped my decision to have a break now. After a good rest and recovery I can focus on work and give it, and my customers, my best.
Coming off the medication isn't the most timely thing to do, but circumstances led me this way. After everything I've said previously about the Italian healthcare system, it's turned out not to be so great after all. The doctors that were treating me suddenly said they can't do it anymore, couldn't even offer medication, nothing. Not so helpful, really. There are workarounds to get the meds, but the added anxiety of fighting the beaurocracy trying to get help seems counter productive. And so, as the tablets were running out, it seemed the most straight forward course of action.
And let's face it, if I can hold it together as I've needed to recently, to get the much needed help for Tom and the bus and keep his spirits up, to look after Aran and his out of character tantrums 24/7 for nearly 3 weeks, and attempt to keep the business ticking over and fight my own worry and deal with the start of a long slow withdrawal from the Venlafaxine, then I reckon I'm stronger than I give myself credit for. I can cope without the meds so long as I'm kind to myself and give myself a well earned break.
That's me then for 2 weeks! I hope you understand my reasons for going off the radar for a while. Happy knitting and see you the other side :)